Falling Into Peace...

Falling Into Peace...6-22-25

Since childhood, I have had two specific dreams. The one in which I don't have a voice and can't call for help, and one in which I am either falling or can't move. These are few and far between now, but I see the patterns. I understand when they come what they mean.

Last night, I was driving a four-wheeler, which was out of control. It was going faster and faster. We were in the desert and I couldn't see the terrain. The ups and downs were coming at me from all directions. I woke just as we went off the edge of the cliff. The words, "Oh my God" were coming out of my mouth. My mind and heart crying out to God.

You see, the devil knows my weaknesses. 1 Peter 5:8, "Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour." Through our habits and actions, he knows us. Just as men knows us by our actions for God, the devil is watching and waiting for those signs of weaknesses he can exploit. My weakness, among many, is fear of failure. Fear of the new and the self-confidence that comes with that.

I know why I had the dream of falling off the cliff last night. My husband and I had been talking about my need to get something done this summer. I had talked to a friend earlier and she asked if I had completed my summer task. I have put it off. In the back of my mind, I'm afraid I can't be successful. I don't want to let people down. I don't want to disappoint anyone, and I don't want to fail. I know that my insecurities come from my lack of faith.

Isaiah 26:3 states, "You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.". I love this verse. Just to know that if I trust Him, and I call on Him, then He will calm my insecurities. He will cast away my demon, insecurity, and He will give me peace.

Why blog about these things? Because, this is my life. This is my reality. These are the things I face. I know others face them too. I know my grandson will read these words one day. I want God to calm his fears. My prayer is that whomever reads these words, they know that our Lord and Savior cares about our insecurities and our fears. He sends His perfect peace even when we are falling. Even when things seem out of control, we need only fall into Him.